but it's OVER !

I felt a form of expression which is currently experiencing a deep pain because of YOU.First, you promised that you will help me to forget him. and you also promise that you would forget a former lover too, who once loved you like I love you now.Do you know how much I struggled to forget him for YOU!Do you see how much I cry away to throw all the memories with him to see you smile?did you just smile because I kept all of what you want? You always say that the past is a memory that we have to remember, 

but we have to throw it away if we feel all the memories that need to be discarded.and the future of one who can make us smile to face the reality that we all happend today.and the fact is with YOU!have you ever felt how difficult i refrained from replying a message from him? 

have you ever felt how sad I hold myself to not care about him? 

had you ever the experienced what I experienced?i thought, that your speech was not like the fact that you did for me.i'm sorry, if I have said something like this.because I ENOUGH with all that you promised so far.but I'm very grateful because you have been willing to fill the emptiness that my heart is fragile because of him.and I promise I wouldnt leave bits of my memories with you when my time is no longer with you.and I promise I will keep everything that you gave for me.

I PROMISE M.A.R !

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i just wanna say GOOD BYE :)

tonight is the night where I realized if all that I feel during this was just a false illusion that will not end up forever if I did not want to know about this.I'm really sorry, for someone who had loved of me with sincere and simple.I remembered, when you say words that are very beautiful .I know if you have spoken words are the words my literary idol, "Chairil Anwar", but I let her let you feel proud and happy because you can write a string of words that could make me fly high in the clouds, my boyfriend HAHA thanks :)string of words, that's :

"I want to love you with a simple ...such as spoken words that were not made of wood to fire the ashes ...I want to love you with a simple ...as cues that were not delivered to the rain clouds that make it dead. "


I know darling, you were too good to be hurt and you're too handsome for the betrayed, HAHAHA
i know dear, you were too good to be hurt,
hmm ..yes I'm sorry if I've always liked stories about "him" on to you.
and I know if you really uncomfortable at all the stories that I'm out of my trouble mouth.
I realized boy,
My love for him if it was not true love.
and you who made me realize that love is eternal love for his child's mother.
why as long as I lived 17 years in this world I never knew ya?
okay honey, I'm gonna hurt you for my stupid stories about "him" to you.
I promise, I'm going to forget him, forget him, forget him and forget him.
because you've managed to forget the women who ever you love.if you can why am I not? I should be I should be I should be.
for you:)
I WILL SAY GOOD BYE FOR HIM,
AND I WILL SAY WELCOME FOR YOU :*


I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

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